Seasons' Change

I'm in an interesting space as the seasons begin to shift. Others like to blame their tiredness and irritability on the weather. But I think that mine is due to feeling...stagnant. I want to act. A play doesn't feel like the right thing, though. Not now. Plays are very tiring for me with working in real estate full time. And yet, they're also so amazingly energizing and fulfilling.

I saw a woman today at the local coffee shop who is friends with a filmmaker...who is a good friend of mine. He's the director/writer/producer of the first movie I was in. Which, by the way, is finally finished and he has now begun to enter it into some film festivals. I was looking forward to a Portland premiere...now I'm nervous about it. Lets just say that there's a lot of me in this film...

Anyways, this woman mentioned that she knew that I had just been in a production and wondered if I had anything else on the horizon. The closest thing I have to working on any production is helping to cast and possibly shoot a lesbian sex scene for the afore mentioned friend/director who is creating a piece for next year's Fringe Festival. And I chuckle. It's not exactly what I'd like to be doing, but my friend has asked for help.

I dreamt about sex with another woman last night (to expose myself to you a bit). Even just a few emails about the subject has got me dreaming about it!

To be honest, my friend's fascination with sex...nakedness (and not just physically)...vulnerablility...has gotten a bit tired for me. But that's him. That's just the way he is. I don't know if I'll actually get too involved with the project. He lives in California now. But...I appreciate his work because he truly forces people beyond their comfort zones with his work...and that's what art, in large part, is about for me. It's one of the main aspects for me, anyway.

Well, cheers to the seasons changing.

Love,
Aislinn

American Idol

Well, we're gonna do it. Neil is going to audition for American Idol in Seattle next Tuesday. He really wants to be on it! I think he feels that it's his only way to get discovered right now. He's at the age limit to audition for the show, so it's his last chance. And, it's only up in Seattle- one of my favorite places.

So, I've taken 3 days off, we've gotten a hotel room and we're going! Standing in line all day on Tuesday doesn't sound fun, but who knows where it can lead? God, can you imagine? What if he makes it to the top 12, or whatever it is? He'll be famous. You just never know! He has a pretty damn good voice.

Now, if he does make it, though, that will change so much. He starts school back up in a week and a half. If he goes to Hollywood, then he won't be able to go to school this term. It's all good I suppose. It's worth it to give what you love doing a shot. If I had a similar opportunity for my acting I would be stupid not to take the risk.

He'll regret it if he doesn't try. If he doesn't make it to the Hollywood auditions, then at least he knows he tried...and at least we got to go to Seattle for 3 days!

Send good thoughts and energy!

Love,
Aislinn

One Lonely Sunflower

One of my very first posts was about some seedlings I had planted. I was quite excited to see what would develope...and I've proven again to be not much of a green thumb, but a few plants did survive. One Sunflower made it to flowering. It's planted in the front of my house and it's quite beautiful and radiantly yellow. It feels a bit lonely, but I'm glad it survived. Three of my Borage plants made it, though they're quite small and a bit droopy. And, my morning glory vines did the best out of all that I planted, though I think the soil that I transplanted them into is a bit too dry. They're not thriving the way I'd hoped they would. I finally got some lattice and I'm going to see if I can train them to start climbing.

We've created quite a beautiful patio area right outside our front door. We got some solar powered lanterns and they are so inviting. We like to sit on our swing and enjoy the peacefullness. I'll miss that during the winter.

I love the seasons, but I really miss the full, green trees in the winter. They feed my soul.

Anyways, I saw my Sunflower as I got home from work today and thought I'd give an update.

Love,
Aislinn