Undecided

Well, I've been busy trying to create what I want for my life. Trouble is, I don't know what that is. Half the time I wish my life were more glamorous. The other half I'm trying to hang on to life's coat tails, wishing I had the energy and wisdom to keep up (and not get overwhelmed).

This is definitely a pivotal time in my life. I'll be getting married this year and will want to have kids in a couple more years, so I feel that I need to do all the things that I want before I have so many responsibilities. I know I've written about this before. I'm still stuck.

I found out last week that an ex-boyfriend of mine moved to San Diego and just got a recording contract. We were going to move to California together...if we had stayed together. I didn't think that he would ever leave Bend...he was a local celebrity there - musician and model. Looks like I'm the one who got left in the dust. I'm so very happy for him. It was also a bit hard to swallow.

So, that's where I'm at. Floating in the choppy waters of the unknown - or undecided.

Love,
Aislinn