How do I get back?

I really need to deal with my insecurity/fear that no one cares about what I have to say. I had some problems with my computer/Internet and it gave me an excuse to take a break from my blog for awhile. The universe must have known that I needed a break as I wasn't able to log in for quite awhile. This is the first time I've tried in weeks and I got right in, go figure.

I really have had quite a lot going on. And on top of it I was in a bit of a funk, but I have emerged and am ready to be creative again. I'm not going to pressure myself to feel like I have to write here every day, but I want to utilize my blog as what I intended it for, just to write. To write for myself.

I am very cranial, as my boss told me today, and that gets in my way when it comes to being creative (i.e. writing and acting). When I was younger I was braver; I allowed myself to be however/whoever I wanted to be, and that was reflected in my writing and acting. I really feel that for awhile I was open to anything when it came to acting. Now I think about it too much. And I get scared. I'm scared of failing. But, I'm also afraid of succeeding. And when I wasn't afraid of all that, I did my best work. How do I get back to that?

I have to leave now to go see my grandma and it's going to take a while to get to her (she's a big part of "I really have had quite a lot going on" - perhaps I'll explain later).

Love,
Aislinn