It's Still With Me
Dangerous Writing is consuming me right now. It is constantly on my mind. And what I find so wonderful is that everyone that I have talked to (or read their blogs) who have been involved is so grateful. What an amazing feeling to be bonded with this very talented group of actors and crew members.
And I have to say that I have never appreciated the crew so much as I do now. Perhaps it's because I know most of them and it's the first time I've actually gotten to work with them in this capacity. I love to watch them with their craft. They are so incredibly focused (or at least it appears that way from my view) and very knowledgeable. Actually, I find it quite sexy.
At work I keep getting asked if I think there will be a premiere, or what the director plans on doing with the film. It's getting annoying, actually. I want to ask them to let me just enjoy the process of making a film and not project what I think the outcome will be. My response to them is that as an actor I don't worry myself with the outcome. I don't want to have expectations or attachments to what I want the end result to be, I can only focus on doing my work. I do it because I love it, not because I want a certain result for the film.
My job is very supportive, for which I am grateful. One woman offered to be my stylist, another asked if she could be my assistant to be able to go on set. They are serious, too. And my boss keeps referring to me as the company's movie star. It's flattering, yet a bit distracting at the same time. I feel like they're building me up and I don't want to let them down. That being said, I know it's their way of showing their support, too. I guess it's kind of like how the reviews for Wit made me feel; I felt a pressure to give a great "performance" so I wouldn't let anyone down who had read the reviews.
I don't mean to sound negative about any of that. It's part of what's making this process so meaningful, the fact that people care so much.
I'm really looking forward to filming this weekend.
Love,
Aislinn
And I have to say that I have never appreciated the crew so much as I do now. Perhaps it's because I know most of them and it's the first time I've actually gotten to work with them in this capacity. I love to watch them with their craft. They are so incredibly focused (or at least it appears that way from my view) and very knowledgeable. Actually, I find it quite sexy.
At work I keep getting asked if I think there will be a premiere, or what the director plans on doing with the film. It's getting annoying, actually. I want to ask them to let me just enjoy the process of making a film and not project what I think the outcome will be. My response to them is that as an actor I don't worry myself with the outcome. I don't want to have expectations or attachments to what I want the end result to be, I can only focus on doing my work. I do it because I love it, not because I want a certain result for the film.
My job is very supportive, for which I am grateful. One woman offered to be my stylist, another asked if she could be my assistant to be able to go on set. They are serious, too. And my boss keeps referring to me as the company's movie star. It's flattering, yet a bit distracting at the same time. I feel like they're building me up and I don't want to let them down. That being said, I know it's their way of showing their support, too. I guess it's kind of like how the reviews for Wit made me feel; I felt a pressure to give a great "performance" so I wouldn't let anyone down who had read the reviews.
I don't mean to sound negative about any of that. It's part of what's making this process so meaningful, the fact that people care so much.
I'm really looking forward to filming this weekend.
Love,
Aislinn
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