The Wedding Dress
My wedding dress came in today. I went into the store and tried it on. It didn't fit! Guess I've gained a little baby weight. At least I have an excuse. The dress, even though the attendant couldn't get it to zip up all the way, is so beautiful. I basically have to hope that my stomach doesn't get any bigger but that my breasts do. Thank goodness for alterations.
The wedding is only six weeks away. While I've tried to have fun with the whole experience, I'm starting to take the stance of, I just don't want to be a burden. There is a lot to ask of people when you're planning a wedding. I don't want those people to end up resenting me. I feel that my friends and family are emanating an air of inconvenience. That could also be my own projection.
Our wedding day feels like it has been a long time coming and I am quite anxious for the day to finally be here. I like instant gratification, so having to wait 10 months, from the time that we set the actual date, has been agonizing. I had a dream recently that I had my wedding gown on and my bridesmaids were all dressed up, too, and then I found out (in my dream) that we still had two weeks to go. I woke up feeling that even if I did have two weeks to go from that moment in real life, it seemed like too long. But, I think the reason why it seems so long is that if we're ready to say our vows "now", why wait months and months and spend a ton of money to do so? I was actually laughing about that with one of my bridesmaids today. It seems so silly. But, the reason why we're having a ceremony is because it's deeply important to both Neil and I to have our friends and family there to support us and witness our vows. And I've always felt that if I'm going to have a ceremony...and I'm only going to be doing it once...then go for it! Plus, admittedly, I can be a bit of princess when it comes to getting what I want. I won't lie. I think it's a product of my upbringing, but I haven't chosen to do away with it. After a certain point, however, I really don't want to be a burden. Let's just get it taken care of and have some dang fun in the process!
Love,
Aislinn
The wedding is only six weeks away. While I've tried to have fun with the whole experience, I'm starting to take the stance of, I just don't want to be a burden. There is a lot to ask of people when you're planning a wedding. I don't want those people to end up resenting me. I feel that my friends and family are emanating an air of inconvenience. That could also be my own projection.
Our wedding day feels like it has been a long time coming and I am quite anxious for the day to finally be here. I like instant gratification, so having to wait 10 months, from the time that we set the actual date, has been agonizing. I had a dream recently that I had my wedding gown on and my bridesmaids were all dressed up, too, and then I found out (in my dream) that we still had two weeks to go. I woke up feeling that even if I did have two weeks to go from that moment in real life, it seemed like too long. But, I think the reason why it seems so long is that if we're ready to say our vows "now", why wait months and months and spend a ton of money to do so? I was actually laughing about that with one of my bridesmaids today. It seems so silly. But, the reason why we're having a ceremony is because it's deeply important to both Neil and I to have our friends and family there to support us and witness our vows. And I've always felt that if I'm going to have a ceremony...and I'm only going to be doing it once...then go for it! Plus, admittedly, I can be a bit of princess when it comes to getting what I want. I won't lie. I think it's a product of my upbringing, but I haven't chosen to do away with it. After a certain point, however, I really don't want to be a burden. Let's just get it taken care of and have some dang fun in the process!
Love,
Aislinn
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