Boob/Jobs

A couple mornings ago I had a dream that I had gotten a boob job. Never previously having an interest in having breast enhancement surgery, I was surprised to find how sexy I felt. Also in my dream, I had already had my baby and I had slimmed and shaped my body into a sexy figure and the large breasts were the final piece. It felt good to be a mom and be so sexy. I think the message of the dream is you can have a life after having a baby. Just because I'll be a mom doesn't mean I'm going to be forever frumpy (nor does it mean that I'll be a bad mom if I focus on being and feeling attractive). Plus, I know that it will be important to continue to pursue what I really want to be doing, which is writing, editing and acting. I want to be a stay at home mom, but I mean that in the sense that I still want my work, with the flexibility of doing most of it from home (the writing and editing, anyhow). I want to be present in my son's life. I absolutely do not want to put him in someone's care while I work away from home all day. But, I also need to know that if something that I love doing comes up, then I have the ability/flexibility to leave him in my mom's care to fulfill my needs as well - and that it's okay to do so.

A large contributor to my fears of becoming a mother is being responsible to this being for the rest of my life (a normal fear, I'm sure). But, that doesn't mean that I have to lose my responsibility to myself. The message of the dream is important to me in that sense.

Love,
Aislinn