Happy Full Moon
Yes, it's three in the morning and I am wide awake, with the baby. I would be wonderfully asleep, all cozy in my bed, if the baby hadn't woken up at 1:00. I'm not too happy right now, but what can you do?
Neil is in Bend, at my dad and step-mom's. He starts his internship with the Redmond Fire Department at 8 in the morning. It will be interesting to see how he does. Normally I would say that he's going to do great, but this is going to be a real challenge for him. Redmond FD is so busy with calls - he works 24 hours on, 48 hours off and they told him not to expect to sleep at all during those 24 hours - they basically need Neil to know as much as he can because they're not going to have time to do much training, he just has to jump right in. Suffice it to say that Neil feels like he doesn't know very much. So, we'll see how it really goes.
I'm going down in a couple of days for nearly two weeks to be with him and help watch my parents' house while they go to Arizona. But, after that, I've decided to stay in Portland and not try to make frequent trips down there. Three hours is a long time for the baby to be in the car, and the cost of gas would be too impacting on our ever-dwindling bank accounts. Besides, Neil has to work two shifts a month at AMR to keep his employment, so he'll have to come home. They won't be long visits, but we'll get to see him.
I thought writing would help me feel better, but it's not. I'm not as unhappy about being up so late as I am about feeling so much resistance in my life lately. Things have not been flowing well and we've faced a lot of challenges. Such is life, I suppose, but it's draining. (Please note that I am grateful for a few great things that I do have - a nice new home and a healthy, good-natured little boy, although he has been quite cranky lately due to his cold and very, very needy.) Usually I have much more patience, but Riley has been waking every two hours at night and has been up by six or seven the last few mornings. The lack of sleep is taking it's toll and it's making it harder to deal with this resistance that I've been feeling.
Alright, it's getting harder for me to clearly express my thoughts, so I'm going to sign off.
Sweet dreams,
Aislinn
Neil is in Bend, at my dad and step-mom's. He starts his internship with the Redmond Fire Department at 8 in the morning. It will be interesting to see how he does. Normally I would say that he's going to do great, but this is going to be a real challenge for him. Redmond FD is so busy with calls - he works 24 hours on, 48 hours off and they told him not to expect to sleep at all during those 24 hours - they basically need Neil to know as much as he can because they're not going to have time to do much training, he just has to jump right in. Suffice it to say that Neil feels like he doesn't know very much. So, we'll see how it really goes.
I'm going down in a couple of days for nearly two weeks to be with him and help watch my parents' house while they go to Arizona. But, after that, I've decided to stay in Portland and not try to make frequent trips down there. Three hours is a long time for the baby to be in the car, and the cost of gas would be too impacting on our ever-dwindling bank accounts. Besides, Neil has to work two shifts a month at AMR to keep his employment, so he'll have to come home. They won't be long visits, but we'll get to see him.
I thought writing would help me feel better, but it's not. I'm not as unhappy about being up so late as I am about feeling so much resistance in my life lately. Things have not been flowing well and we've faced a lot of challenges. Such is life, I suppose, but it's draining. (Please note that I am grateful for a few great things that I do have - a nice new home and a healthy, good-natured little boy, although he has been quite cranky lately due to his cold and very, very needy.) Usually I have much more patience, but Riley has been waking every two hours at night and has been up by six or seven the last few mornings. The lack of sleep is taking it's toll and it's making it harder to deal with this resistance that I've been feeling.
Alright, it's getting harder for me to clearly express my thoughts, so I'm going to sign off.
Sweet dreams,
Aislinn
posted by Aislinn at
2:12 AM
1 Comments:
Hi difficulties are part of life. If you don't know the difficulties of life you will never enjoy the happiness. These difficulties remind us the what happiness is. Never look up for those people who are happier then you always look downward those who have not that things that you have. Best of luck for Neil internship.
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