I want what he's got

A friend of mine, who was my co-lead in my first film, La Devocion, has become quite a local acting success - in theater, film, commercials and print. He's been in productions at nearly every theater in town, he was "Joe" in an On Point Credit Union commercial that aired for a while and he plays a priest in the film Management. I about pooped my pants awhile back while I was driving and I looked up to see his big smiling face with a piece of cantaloupe in a Fred Meyer billboard. Well, in Bend Neil and I saw a billboard for Powerball and sure as shit there was Gil, riding in car, gawking at the amount of the next drawing. I had to do a double take as he had a huge mustache, most certainly a fake, but it was him. And I thought, man, who is his agent?

I would like to get an agent. I've wanted to do so for a long, long time. I did try once, at Ryan Artists, but the guy kept giving me the run around and it never manifested. I've kept my feelers out, though, and when I'm ready, I think I'll contact Kaili at Arthouse. However, when I'll be ready is a question that comes up for me quite often. There is still a part of me, deep down, that wants to be a famous actor. It's something that I haven't let go of since I was in junior high, practicing my Oscar speech in the mirror. Man, I could cry at the drop of a hat like no other. But, as I got older, I got, dare I say it, more sensible. I wanted to get a degree so I had something to "fall back on" if I didn't make it. That view of "making it" has certainly changed. It's not about trying to find fame anymore, but about enjoying the work. It is my passion. Having a baby does not mean that I am no longer an actor, but it does put a little crinkle in the attempt to keep that dream alive and the passion in the forefront.

So, when I say that when I'm ready I'll try to get an agent, it's entirely dependant on when the baby is ready, too. If I were to get an acting job, I would make it work with the baby. I have some good support, particularly with my mom. But, there are so many of Riley's firsts that I don't want to miss out on. He crawled for the first time yesterday and it was so awesome to experience! Neil was pretty bummed out that he missed it, and I can't imagine how bummed I would be if I was out at an audition or rehearsal or shoot and missed those big milestones. So, it's very important to me that I'm as present as possible with my growing boy. But, the hope has not died that I get back into acting sooner than later.

In the meantime, I enjoy seeing my friends' success. It keeps me motivated to find my success, too. I'm already enjoying one of them. Having Riley is best thing I've ever done.

Love,
Aislinn